Monday
Feb042013

2012. 365. two photos. every day. 

I did it! Did what, exactly?

Believe me, it might not sound like a big deal to take photographs daily. But it is not easy, especially at first, to find new photos every day. I had attempted another 365 project a few years back, which lasted a couple to three months before I gave up. 

This time, my inspiration came directly from Corinna Robbins whom I met at Camp Shutter Sisters in 2011. She was just completing her 365 project, and I could see her pride beaming because of it. NOT the boasting kind of pride, but the real inner-strength-I-believe-in-myself-when-I-didn't-before kind of pride. Hard-won pride. Her images are gorgeous. I can tell she really worked to find great images and learn photography through doing so ... As an aside, don't even get me started on her writing. This girl oozes talent.

At the same Camp, I took a Self-Portraiture class taught by Shutter Sister Meredith Winn. I had not understood the first thing about the mighty Selfie until learning from Meredith. I thought it was about how good I can look, or a look-at-me-look-at-me narcissism ... I didn't get it at all. Meredith taught me about the power of looking at myself, of expressing my range of emotions, of really seeing myself and letting myself be seen.

My idea came to me in October, then brewed and stewed. I was terrified to actually try it. The new year came and went. Then on January 4, 2012, I committed to doing a diptych-a-day: one photo of what I see out in the world, and one self-portrait. Why did I want to make my 365 double hard on myself?

I am so glad I did!

Here's what I learned:

At first, I struggled to find a photo every day, let alone two. Slowly over the months, my seeing gained momentum and strength. Now, I see objects and scenes all day long that catch my eye. I also thank Tracey Clark and the Shutter Sisters community for helping me to see and validate my entire world, the Beautiful and Real. Every day.

Turns out, I am not unphotogenic, I just did not know my better angles. I am willing to see myself now and accept more parts of myself, including the darker, more complicated parts that previously I kept hidden from the outside world, and often from myself as well. Over the course of the year, I see myself open more and more to the camera, and thus to being seen, when I look in my eyes in the images I took of myself. This simple act of opening up, each day a little more, and seeing myself has been incredibly healing!!!!

To sum it up, in 2012: I fell in love. With myself. With photography (again). With a (shy) man. With the world. With Love. With Life. Daily Life.  

Thursday
Jan032013

day three, 2013

Wednesday
Jan022013

day two, 2013

Tuesday
Jan012013

Day One, 2013

Monday
Dec312012

365/365: to argentina, with love

Sunday
Dec302012

364/365: it takes two to tango

Saturday
Dec292012

363/365: joy, since high school

Friday
Dec282012

362/365: find a beautiful place and get lost

Thursday
Dec272012

361/365: buenos buenos aires

Wednesday
Dec262012

360/365: the after parties

Tuesday
Dec252012

359/365: christmas, actually

Monday
Dec242012

358/365: a different kind of christmas

Sunday
Dec232012

357/365: southern hemisphere reflections

Saturday
Dec222012

356/365: a frida kind of morning

Friday
Dec212012

355/365: of love and legs

Thursday
Dec202012

354/365: buenos dias, buenos aires!

Wednesday
Dec192012

353/365: going places ... with a full heart

Tuesday
Dec182012

352/365: thank you for all the reflections

Monday
Dec172012

351/365: moment by moment

Sunday
Dec162012

350/365: potential & possibility